RMC

Blonde hair almost decades ago,
thought it was gone I let it go
slow I go down this road grow
does the web of deceit some sew.

Expose I know it all too well,
the growing expressions of hell
in the crime I commit it swells
like an arthritic joint it hurts I dwell.

My dear I have left you behind
in the deep recesses of my mind
but ghouls sometime like to rewind
time I do too but not this time.

Find I hope they do I loved it
but I had to leave you behind there.
My sweet dear I shed a tear I left
you over 19 years ago but on you I swear. 

In my mind I find none ever
have found me again the same.
But forces that must know I’ll let
them know your name I’m not ashamed.

They want bravado they want ego,
I know someone knows you too.
How it arose back into the black
I’ll never know but I’ve let go of you.

I want to curse them for bringing
you into the fray on display
cause for years I only held on
to the time I told you goodbye that day.

If it’s you crying out loud apologies
I’m in a time and space away
from reason in this place it has
become an ill made season today.

Love You Friend,

For….you dear.