RMC

If you want to know what really makes me mad:

Is when people who know the right thing to do, who have the capability to do something about it and don’t, I don’t understand. No need laboring in thought over it. I’d rather labor over enjoyable thoughts.

It is innate that we as a species propagate. As a mammal it is an instinct that drives many to make choices they make. I for one am happy with freedom. I am happy with knowledge.

I know my mind. I know my heart. In it is no capacity but to live a life of comfort I was robbed from years ago. Having been dealt several raw hands one would think they wouldn’t be surprised by much. I’m not. But I am.

I seek what you seek. Validation. I had none at some points in my life. I’ve been to many churches of many denominations and it seems a thing now a days. Trying to find comfort for the soul in a soulless world. And sometimes the world can be cold. But it does not have to be.

Cold. Like the draft I am writing now as we speak that I don’t know if it will find anyone’s eyes. I don’t know much of anything nowadays. Except to try and strive for a more structured mindset to overcome the anguish of regret and pain I’ve been exposed to. Whether through no part of my own fault or not, no excuse need be given for trying.

I’ve tried my entire life to remain true to the honor I’ve known my name to be. Floundered…yes I have. Into a passionate exclamation for a sufficient remedy for this life I’ve walked. These shoes I have now, even now they stink of trash. The trash I clean and tend to in my life figuratively and literally. I decided to write free hand tonight.

No music. Just me and WordPress. Which I love. I couldn’t go without your guys support as a man or mammal. Rest assured I understand that. I understand there are good people. I understand you might have come here for sad poetry or you didn’t intend showing up here at all.

It doesn’t matter. Nothing does except for the relationships we have between us and when all else fails I know people know how to be kind…

Regards,

Raven 🖤